Last week, right in the middle of my major dramatic life transition, an unexpected thing happened. Someone, who i came to trust (because i’m just so damn nice!) stole from me but wouldn’t admit it. Well, I could be wrong with my suspicion.. but I don’t think I am. I swear i never misplaced that thing, and i’m 99.9% sure that person took it.

The last few days had been hell, for that item stolen is of great importance and value. I’ve been struggling to forgive even though it’s not asked of me, to forgive myself for being so naive even though it’s not actually my fault, and to deal with my anger. I’ve been asking the Lord why this has happened.. why i have been constantly a victim of the cruelty of mankind (exag!).. why He has allowed the sin of others to affect me and bring me undeserved nuisance.. why of all times and all things, it was stolen at this crucial time in my life. I so badly needed it and what makes this worse is, it wasn’t mine, and yet I lost it. And now, i have to find a way to compensate for it. How more upset can i get?

In line with what happened, an old friend texted me to ask for my help in praying for that something important she needs to do. I told her, “Sure, I’ll pray for you. That is, if my prayers are actually heard..” I was rebuked for saying that. And more importantly, His Word comes to the rescue again. I don’t know how He does it. That every time my unbelief starts to kick in, He finds a way to speak.. just in time i begin to feel ignored.

Peter said, *”Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.”

What happened is not something strange. I am living in this earth, what did I expect? That every person I meet is nice just because he/she seems nice? That I actually expect fairness? That nothing’s supposed to go wrong because I am God’s child?

Then it’s a foolish expection.

“At all times, but especially in times of suffering, help me to fix my eyes on You, Lord Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the glory set before You endured the cross. Help me to consider You who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that I will not grow weary and lose heart when it comes my turn to carry a cross..”

So how is it to forgive someone who’s not asking for it and to reluctantly choose to just extend grace out of obedience to Him?

It’s a battle. But because I am His, I’m always on the winning side, ain’t I?

*1 Pet 4:12-13 (NIV)

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Risen from the Dead.
Before anything else, I’d like to say a big Congratulations to all my ka-Barangay.. yey! :)

Ginebra Kings bagging the crown in the PBA All-Filipino Conference

Star Cinema vs GMA Films
Two days ago, so I could pass the time until my next appointment, I watched both Let the Love Begin and Dreamboy consecutively (Yes, i was alone. Don’t get too surprised like some who have heard of this did.. This is natural for me. ^_^). Curiousity got the better of me as to which movie is better than which movie ever since they started promoting both films. I just had to find out which one is better! But as a more loyal Kapamilya, prior to watching, I was actually leaning a little bit towards Star Cinema’s film. But after watching both, I completely changed my mind.

If you haven’t watched both films, I’m guessing you would want to hear of my opinion?

Well, each movie has its own pros and cons.. but let’s just say, if you want to see a lovestory other than what we usually encounter in Pinoy films, watch Dreamboy (though truth is, it really just reminded me so much of The Truman Show — pardon me for giving out spoilers); but if you want to feel ‘kilig’ to go with this Valentine season’s fever, go with Let the Love Begin. The Richard-Angel and Mark-Jennilyn tandems are effective in giving the viewers the warm fuzzy feeling they paid to get. Believe me. They don’t hoot and shriek that loud in cinemas!

So which do I like better? Hmm… theme song-wise? I’m forever a Kyla fan. haha. *hums the song, Let the Love Begin*

I’ll tell you though.. it was funny the way I was in front of the ticket booth to pay for my ticket, as if telling the ticket lady to Let the Love Begin.. But I realized it would’ve been funnier if I opted to watch Shall We Dance! :)

UHC Covenant
The Unica Hija Club is a trio composed of me, Rita, and Riz. Because we are just normal, beautiful human beings, our conversations are often about Love, Courtship (and Marriage?). And because we are LCM freaks, we once made a written covenant on marrying the right one. And because it’s Feb 14, Tarits decided to post the covenant on her blogsite to commemorate it. Read about our silliness here. :D

My Dates.

Karen, me, Melissa

These are my classmates from pre-school to college (talk about sturdy friendships!). We are once again re-united and enjoying every minute of our bonding time. :)

Valentine’s Day
To all the lovers out there and those who are presently in love (you know who you are).. Happy Valentine’s Day! As a line in 5 People You Meet in Heaven says, “Every life has one true-love snapshot.” I hope you guys have clicked on your own snapshots.. Stay in love!

To all who greeted me on my birthday, thank you! I know it’s gonna be a tough 16th year for me.. but i’ll try to hang on.

Er. Not Sixteen. Twenty-one! Waah.

I spent my 21st (ugh) birthday with 3 of my college classmates. I was hoping i could also eat dinner with some old friends but who, sadly, had other plans. It was nothing special really.. i guess when you’re getting older, birthdays bring you less excitement when you’re not expecting a children’s party or huge presents (tangible or monetary. haha.) from titos, titas, ninongs & ninangs. And, I realized a week ago, that birthdays only mean you’re one year older… no point celebrating that, is there? heehee.

Wah. I missed my barkada back at home who, I’m sure, wouldn’t have let January 29th pass un-celebrated. It would have been another reason for all of us to gather, sit and talk over a cup of coffee.. oh well. :)

However, i did have the best pre-birthday celebration.. I was with 3 of the most beautiful girls on this earth!

Hannah, Tarits, Riz, me

To Tarits and Riz: I enjoyed every minute of our bonding time! I understand you need two weeks off to focus on your theses.. I believe you’re both true to your words… But, last Friday, i also believed it when Riz said she had to go to class at 4:00 and Tarits had to attend their BigF at 4:00! bwahaha. hope to see you again soon!